The Plank

I was sitting in my room this morning getting ready thinking back on yesterday.
My mom had surgery, my brother accidentally made the fire alarm go off, Carman...
And I thought about how I was talking to someone and how mean i thought they were for saying such mean things about one of my friends...then i realized how much crap I say about people.
Like yesterday at Carman...I was laughing and joking about him. I am such a hypocrite...
Here I was pointing out the splinter in someones eye, and im standing there with a plank in mine!!
Then numbers of things started popping into my head where I had laughed at someone...said something rude...gossiped about someone. WHO AM I?
Why do I think I can judge.
I HATE it when people talk about me, yet here I am talking about people.
I laughed at someone walking into the doors of my church...idk if He saw me, but I am standing there representing my church and Im laughing at someone walking in!
If that would have happened to me, I would have thought the people at that church must be rude and NEVER go back!!
I even helped lead people to Christ after the Carman show, I wasnt ready to do that last night...I had been complaining and joking all night. I wasnt prayed up. I wasnt in the attitude of worship.
SO many times I tell my school that it doesnt matter what the band is like on the stage...that isnt worship. TRUE worship comes from your heart!
WHAT A HYPOCRITE I HAVE BEEN!
I feel terrible and I sat in front of my mirror this morning and cried and asked God to give me his eyes to see with his love. With his point of view not mine.
I asked that every thought that went in my head, every word that came out of my mouth would be pleasing to Him!

I need growth.
I dont want to be a hypocrite yet, slowly, thats what Im turning into.
Forgive me.
Im so sorry.
Im checking myself...examining my faults.
Pray for me.

Im not mistaken.

Does he know the way he makes me feel?
the feeling of complete bliss, in this, i know
I should be, in someway, mistaken.

all the heartache has been erased
i feel no pain, but happiness at your side.
you hold me and i feel at ease.


I smile and laugh with no reason
except this, I am completely happy being with you, in this, i know
I should be in someway mistaken.

Come back and hold me tonight.
because in your arms, I know im safe
from Heartbreak and sadness.

No, Im not mistaken, I know you'll be here again.
Your arms wrapped around me.
your heart against mine.
I feel it beating.
Im not mistaken when i say this.