The Plank

I was sitting in my room this morning getting ready thinking back on yesterday.
My mom had surgery, my brother accidentally made the fire alarm go off, Carman...
And I thought about how I was talking to someone and how mean i thought they were for saying such mean things about one of my friends...then i realized how much crap I say about people.
Like yesterday at Carman...I was laughing and joking about him. I am such a hypocrite...
Here I was pointing out the splinter in someones eye, and im standing there with a plank in mine!!
Then numbers of things started popping into my head where I had laughed at someone...said something rude...gossiped about someone. WHO AM I?
Why do I think I can judge.
I HATE it when people talk about me, yet here I am talking about people.
I laughed at someone walking into the doors of my church...idk if He saw me, but I am standing there representing my church and Im laughing at someone walking in!
If that would have happened to me, I would have thought the people at that church must be rude and NEVER go back!!
I even helped lead people to Christ after the Carman show, I wasnt ready to do that last night...I had been complaining and joking all night. I wasnt prayed up. I wasnt in the attitude of worship.
SO many times I tell my school that it doesnt matter what the band is like on the stage...that isnt worship. TRUE worship comes from your heart!
WHAT A HYPOCRITE I HAVE BEEN!
I feel terrible and I sat in front of my mirror this morning and cried and asked God to give me his eyes to see with his love. With his point of view not mine.
I asked that every thought that went in my head, every word that came out of my mouth would be pleasing to Him!

I need growth.
I dont want to be a hypocrite yet, slowly, thats what Im turning into.
Forgive me.
Im so sorry.
Im checking myself...examining my faults.
Pray for me.